by Danielle Holian

Demi Lovato confessed to American Way ‘I didn’t think I would make it to 21’ when speaking out about her past struggles with addictions, bipolar disorder, and an eating disorder. The previously mentioned magazine interview, the 23-year-old recalls these issues, how far she has come, and she explains why she thought her life would be tragically cut short.

The pop star and mental health advocate spoke in depth about how her struggle with body image started when she was just 3-years-old; She became self-conscious when she entered beauty pageants and was being judged for the way she looked. Following on to her stardom on television, it all plagued her eventually; in due course, this lead the singer to alcohol and drug abuse.

“My body-image awareness started way before that,” said Lovato. “But I do attribute a little of my insecurities to being onstage and judged for my beauty.”

Her mother and grandmother suffer from bulimia and this lead to future problems for the Confident singer.

“Being around somebody who was 80 pounds and had an active eating disorder … it’s hard not to grow up like that,” she recalls.

“I lived fast and I was going to die young,” she told the magazine. “I didn’t think I would make it to 21.”

While being cast for the Disney Channel Original Movie, Camp Rock, at just 15-years-old, she feared she would be the next Britney Spears or Lindsay Lohan, who at the time their lives spiralled out-of-control.

“Making Camp Rock, I was definitely like, ‘Oh crap. In three years, that’s going to be me,'” she said.

Lovato was determined no to be a child star stereotype, but the road was easily taken by. She, after some time, entered rehab. “I thought, ‘I’m not in treatment for a drug and alcohol problem. But once I started eating again, the other issues got worse. It was like whack-a-mole.”

After years of struggling, the singer is now in a healthier place. This March, she celebrated her fourth year of sobriety. She addresses her fans for their dedication in seeing her as an influential person.

“When I have meet-and-greets, I can’t tell you the amount of times that girls will show me their arms covered in scars or cuts,” she Lovato. “They’ll tell me, ‘You helped me get through this. Because of you, I stopped self-harming,’ or ‘I got sober.’ Hearing those things gave my life new meaning.”

Longtime friend, Nick Jonas, discussed with ET about the two going on tour together, “it is probably the best timing for everyone.”

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